God moves in each of our lives differently, and during a variety of ups and downs.
One of life’s greatest mysteries is life itself.
And so is death.
There is a song by Steve Wariner called “Two Teardrops” that I feel appropriately represents this particular Bachelor Believers post. Especially the last verse and chorus:
Last night I sat in the waiting room
A nurse walked in and gave me the news
“It’s a baby girl and they’re both fine.”
An old man sitting not ten feet away
Just lost his wife and he said to me
“You’ve got a brand new angel and I’ve lost mine.
I guess the good Lord giveth and the good Lord taken away.”
We both wiped a teardrop from our face.
Oh the ocean’s a little bit bigger tonight
Two more teardrops somebody cried
One of them happy and one of them bluer than blue.
The tide goes out and the tide comes in
A whole new circle of life begins
Where tears are part of the pleasure and part of the pain
Till they drift on down and ride to the sea again…
Rebecca Buchanan shares an honest testimony about the loss of a friend, who was newly a parent…and about what she gained spiritually from the loss.
There are so many stories I can share about times God has really moved in my life. As I sit here writing this, I have just learned that one of my best friends lost his battle with cancer.
He was the kind of guy who always looked at the bright side of every situation, loved God with his whole heart, and trusted HIS plan!
Sasha welcomed his first baby into the world in August, and less than a year later was taken from us to be with God.
As a human, I can’t help but feel that it’s not fair that his son has to grow up without his dad.
We aren’t meant to understand why these things happen. God doesn’t call us to understand His reason for things, but to have faith like a child. To trust Him.
2 Corinthians 4:18
“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
I am devastated at the loss of such a dear friend, but I am also encouraged and reminded to live my life for Christ. Not to wait until God is ready for me to leave this world to try to get my affairs in order, but to be ready when God calls me home.
I want to live a life that God would be proud of. Because we don’t know when our time to go will be.
When life gets busy, I tend to spend less time with God in The Word than I do checking my Instagram.
But my friend’s death, in a bittersweet way, has reminded me what’s truly important in life; unfailingly faith in God, having Gods word in and on my heart, love with my whole heart, be present and genuine in all my relationships and show others Christ’s love.
“For this is how God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.”
I personally believe that, sometimes, one person may die so that others (possibly many) may live. To, as Rebecca said, remind those around them the importance of making the most of the time allotted on this Earth.
Nothing is more important than our relationship with Jesus…and death has a way of reminding us of that.
This next Bachelor Family member also shares a testimony about death and new life…except from the point of view of a mother dealing with the loss of a child, as well as the fears of journeying into motherhood once more after this loss.
My Rainbow After the Storm
~ Raichel Goodyear-Suarez
When Daniel and I got married, we were so excited to start our little family! We went on our honeymoon shortly after the wedding. When we got back, we realized fairly soon that I was pregnant!
This was amazing and unexpected news. We were so overjoyed. When I went in for a checkup at what I assumed the baby to be around 7 weeks or so, we were given terrible news…
We ran tests and made extra certain that this was indeed the case, but to our devastation, our little angel did not fully develop.
I was heartbroken.
I experienced self-blame, anger, sadness… and I just couldn’t understand how “God could do this to me”.
We do that sometimes… We blame God.
After I grieved and came out of the fog of the heartbreaking situation, I realized God is my Almighty Father, and He knows what is best for our life.
There is also the factor of sin in the world. And sadly, bad things happen to both good people and bad people. Things are sometimes out of our control…
But we accept that God is on our side, and if we are living for Him.
He truly does work all things for good (Romans 8:28).
The doctor told me my body would just pass the baby on it’s own – naturally – and we didn’t need to do anything else.
Well, my body read pregnant on a blood test for about 8 months thereafter. At about 9 months, my body finally decided to “pass the baby.” This caused me to relive the sadness and grief, but I knew I had hope in the Lord’s plan.
His time, not mine.
A month later, we conceived! I knew the moment it happened that I was pregnant. As soon as I was able to check, I read pregnant on the test! We were completely beside ourselves with joy and we were so excited to finally be parents!
In hindsight, we realized that we had grown so much as a couple in the past 9 months, and we really got to have some incredible experiences that would’ve been much different had we already had a child.
We knew that NOW we were truly ready :)
All the tests came back great! The baby was healthy and we were on track!
My pregnancy was a breeze. I had little to no sickness, minimal weight gain, I worked up until my due date… I felt great!
However, towards the end, all of my anxieties kicked in at once. I was absolutely TERRIFIED of the epidural! I did not want to feel numb and helpless, or feel like I was out of control of my body.
I was so scared of the pain… the unknown.
I could not stop panicking, and was overly-fearful for the last month or so. It was really hard to handle.
I kept praying for peace and tried to just trust in Him. It was the only way I knew to cope.
Then my due date passed…
A day, 3 days, a week… and finally almost 2 weeks had passed!
Now, I REALLY started to panic. Friends were telling me stories of still births, and others were insisting that this wasn’t normal… etc etc.
All the while, my doctor told me my baby was perfectly healthy and thriving. Not to worry!
But I couldn’t help but worry…
Why isn’t he here yet?
I kept thinking this every second of every day until… It was time to induce!
One of my worst fears! I had always wanted a natural labor!
We went in to the hospital and started the induction process. I will spare you all of the details, but I will sum it up by saying:
Everything I did NOT want… It ALL happened ! Haha!
It was almost comical how opposite of my plan the birth had gone.
At the end of a rigorous and tiring 44 hours, my doctor came in and said.. “He just doesn’t want to come out. We are going to do a c-section…”
Of all the things.. I never EVER imagined my labor going like this.
By this time, I couldn’t even feel my body I was so dosed up on the epidural… & I was fighting against my fears the entire time. It was exhausting. I just kept praying and trusting in God that He knew the plan, and that it was in His hands.
They got me prepped and started to roll me in for the dreaded c-section. I literally thought I was going to die. Yes, I’m a bit of a worrier! haha :) Maybe you can relate.
To my amazement, the procedure was done in a flash! Before I knew it, they were sewing me up, and I could hear my beautiful baby boy cry!
I went from feeling like I was in HELL to being surrounded by so much love and excitement. I was overcome with pure joy and had such a rush of accomplishment and pride.
I was a mommy! And here he is my precious son… God’s perfect gift!
My rainbow after the storm.
I will never forget our baby that passed, and I will always remember the sadness…
But in the midst of the rain, He brought us the sunshine and filled our life with this perfect rainbow.
Greyson Porter Suarez was born on January 3rd, 2015. We are madly in love with him and so grateful for Gods gift of life.
We have a tendency to try and dictate our lives, to plan, & to expect or think we know what’s best or right. I have learned though this journey of love and loss that it is better to let go and let God!
It is better to trust in His all-knowing and powerful plan! I had in my mind every which way I wanted and needed for things to play out. In the end, He had a much different plan.
Through this journey, I overcame so many of my anxiety issues. I learned that I am not always going to be in control, and that is absolutely ok!
I learned that things aren’t always going to go as planned, and sometimes by having to go down another path, you see things you would’ve never noticed or appreciated before.
I thank Jesus that He had me in the palm of His hand the entire time.
Through loss and heartbreak.
Through new life.
Through a lengthy labor and delivery.
And now…through this life together as a family – living for Christ!
I still struggle with fears or worry sometimes, but I always remember this:
If He brings me TO it, He will bring me THROUGH it!
I love my Jesus! He has never forsaken me. I have given my life to Him. I have repented of my sins, and I cannot wait to be with him one day.
Until then, I will aim to enjoy every moment I have with my family and friends – because they are blessings straight from Him.
I could’ve never gotten though anything in my life without Christ, and I would never ever want to.
God bless you.
Greyson’s Mommy ❤️
What I find most amazing about this post is that neither lady knew what the other submitted. They had no idea.
But MY God has a way of syncing spirits and thoughts that often blows my mind! As it has today.
If you have a friend or relative who is dealing with such loss as has been shared in this post, please share these testimonies with them! Sometimes, just knowing that “you are not alone” in a struggle makes all the difference.
God bless each and every one of you! And keep checking back for the next Bachelor Believers post. I’m not sure what God will have in store for the next one, but if He aligns hearts and minds again as was done for this post, I know it will be a blessing!